an insomniac's despair

the nights when sleep is nowhere near you
you toss n turn no more
for you are lying still, figuring out
what went wrong
did u say something not meant to be said
or you did what shouldnt have been done
for the life of you, you wonder
whether u should wonder at all!
should u really be feeling guilty
or is there nothing at all!

you know u will wake up
if ever that u sleep
with a headache and regret
for not having slept at all.
And then when u get a phonecall
that puts ur mind to rest
u sit and curse yourself
for not having done what was best!